Thursday, December 4, 2014

Wow has it been awhile lol. Life has picked up for me and hasn't slowed down at all!
New things are scary but exciting. I started volunteering for a play doing props. Haven't done that in about 8 years, so I was pretty nervous but I am having SO much fun! I've gotten to meet so many great people and I'm finally able to do something I love after being gone from home for so long. Its the last weekend of the play as well, soooo you should come see it!
Next, WE OWN A HOUSE! Whaaaat?! Still sounds so crazy to me, and makes me feel like such an adult. Who would have thought that a year ago I could say we own a house?! Def not me. But it is beautiful! We finally have a place for everything, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to be spoiled when we have to move in a couple of years. Especially the kitchen, it is my favorite place which is funny because I have an eating disorder lol. Little joke, gotta make some fun of it somehow.  Anyways, the kitchen is huge and just perfect. I am so happy with everything Nick and I chose to design the house.
How is recovery going you ask?? Its a headache and its tiring. Its the hardest thing I've ever reached for but somehow I keep pushing through to make it one step closer. Please keep praying for me! Especially during the holidays, which is usually stressful and full of food lol. Yay -_-. My best friend here, Nick and I are going to do the NEDA walk in Athens (which isn't very far) in February. We are so excited!! Remember the conference I was supposed to go to but I relapsed and couldn't go? Its the same people/function, and it raises awareness for eating disorders in people. We're going to have to ask for some donations once we sign up and we plan on doing some car washes and stuff, but if you are able to at all donate even just $1 please do! Its for a good cause and we really need help with research! Ps I hate asking for stuff haha.

Since Thanksgiving just happened, I figured I should write about some things I'm thankful for.
1. My husband -- As hard as this first year has been with me being in the hospital so many times and going through really rough therapy as well as many many breakdowns from me. He has never left my side and has continued to support me through this. He's been so patient and has been my rock and light through this very dark and terrible storm and I couldn't ask for anyone better to spend my life with. Thank you love.
2. My family -- I'm so thankful my parents came to see me when I was in the hospital and picked up Barley to watch him for us. You will never understand how truly grateful I am. I was so scared to tell you what had been happening, but there you were showing up with coloring books and puzzles to keep me busy! The rest of  my family I want to thank for supporting me and all the prayers to help me get to where I am today and helping me keep pushing.
3. My team of doctors -- There are times where I have truly wanted to yell at these people and times where I have truly hated them, but they never have left me.  I would not be where I am today without them. They are very dear and amazing people and I will never be able to thank them enough for what they have done for me and are doing still. I know I've been a pain to them, but they never gave up. And I love them for that
4. My friends -- Y'all know who you are! Thank you for always checking in with me to see how I'm doing and for continuously listening to my rants about everythinnnggg under the sun! I miss you all and hope to get to see some of you over Christmas!
5. My fur babies -- They are a prime example of unconditional love. They always know when I've been upset about not being in Texas or when I just ate and they always do their best to comfort me. No matter how imperfect I am they are always right next to me (or on me haha) giving me lots and lots of love.

We'll be in Texas in a little over 2 weeks now! Get ready y'all!